I’m at a loss for words, because your story sounds so surreal. I cannot understand why a large group of people would act as if you, your situation and your feelings are abstract concepts. Like: What would you do if a meteor crashed through your living room?

Such denial is worthy of an intervention. Someone to act on your behalf who sees and hears and understands your needs and is willing to “shake that tree” until some sense falls out of it.

Best of luck.